Awkward

Why is it that every time I joke around and am nice to guys they think I'm flirting? Wait...I may have just answered my own question. That shows confidence right? Or am I wrong? I'm SO confused!

My only problem... I'm not attracted to these guys. I'm a total spaz around men I'm attracted to. Quiet, reserved, and well postured. 

I know. Weird. 

I don't know what it is but my checks flush, I glow ( yes, I perspire..only a little though), and can barely utter words as well. I'm so busy being nervous that I can't relax. I use to do this whenever I was forced to do presentations in front of the class at school. I say forced because I didn't want to and they required it to pass the class. Horrible. 

Like I said. I'm a spaz. A total spaz. 

I'm improving though. Trying to get out of my comfort zone and get more comfortable in my discomfort. Baby steps but I'm doing it. Now to just attract the right guys...

That's a whole new issue too. I seem to attract the wrong men. I'll save that for the next post.